Monday, 12 February 2018

My latest skincare routine

Macam biasa laa, aku tengah dalam proses nak upload gambar travel yang banyak tak terkata tu, so in the meantime update benda simple dulu, like my skincare routine haha.

Actually there's nothing simple about my routine, especially untuk orang yang tak kisah sangat pasal skincare ni. So far I think I have close to 15 steps and more than 25 products..? Tapi of course laa aku tak pakai everything at one time.

So, for starters:
My skin type - still trying to figure this one out, tapi aku rasa combination skin. Oily on T-zone mostly waktu siang, dry everywhere else especially on chin area
Skin concerns - redness, occasional acne, enlarged pores, dark circles, under eye wrinkles

These are my latest skincare steps:

1) Oil cleanser

Kose Softymo Speedy Cleansing Oil

Beli kat Japan dalam 550 yen, tak sampai RM25. Cleansing oil pakai for PM routine je. Does its job well, aku suka pakai oil dalam pump bottle, senang. Cleansing oil takyah beli yang fancy fancy sangat huahua.

2) Low pH foam cleanser

Hada Labo Gokujyun Hydrating Face Wash

Pun beli kat Japan, tak sampai RM20 pun bila convert. Kat Watsons/Guardian pun ada, dalam RM30 kalau tak silap, kalau tengah sale lagi murah. pH 5.5 so it's gentle to skin, sesuai laa untuk orang kulit kering macam gurun Sahara ni haa.

3) pH adjusting toner

Cosrx AHA/BHA Clarifying Treatment Toner

pH adjusting toner ni untuk turunkan pH level kulit dan sediakan kulit untuk terima actives. But this one aku pakai every day sebab AHA/BHA content dia tak tinggi pun so quite gentle for everyday use. Baru je beli, ~RM48 from Hermo, pakai pun tak sampai sebulan lagi.

Sunday, 31 December 2017

Going into 2018

A bit personal post.

This is what has been playing on my mind for a few weeks already: I'm thinking of settling down.

My story with love and boyfriends started at least 10 years ago, when I was still a teenager.

In high school I knew I wanted to marry early, start a family early, and be happy with only that.

But of course, as you go along and learn life doesn't work in such a simple way.. man, I miss my innocence.

I started having so many relationships, more than I can count. It's like I can't live on my own, and I had this mindset where I need to find my life partner asap.

Then comes uni years. I think I did fall in love really hard once or twice, but looking back it wasn't as simple as love. I was bored, I hated being alone, and I just wanted someone.

In my last relationship, I took the dump really hard.

It was then I decided, enough is enough. No more boys. I could live well on my own, and I could be happy with myself, and learn to love myself first before anyone else.

And I guess I succeeded in a way. I have been single for almost 4 years now.

The worst part is, I love my life so much right now. I love not having responsibilities. I love not having to take care of another person. I love going wherever I want, whenever I want. I rarely feel lonely. I certainly don't feel like I need a man in my life.

Why would anyone give up single life hahahaha. This is the best thing ever.

But then... Then, for the past few weeks, I've been thinking about that childhood dream.

Getting married, having kids, having my own family.

To be really honest, it's not the getting married part that I'm excited about - since I have no one I'm in love with right now. But I just wish I could've had a kid by now.

I'm not planning to get married in 2018, and one reason why is because I already used up most of my cuti rehat hahaha.

But I still wish for something to happen.

Not because I need a guy in my life. But because I'm starting to want to.

Well.. hopefully.

Wednesday, 29 November 2017


I'm awake now because I have been sleeping really early, like 8 pm-ish early. My work nowadays involves me learning new stuffs everyday and trying to absorb like a sponge, so I'm tired every day.

Every single day.

I can't say I regret this, or that I don't like it. I'm giving myself 6 months to a year to adjust, and this is still very early in the adjustment period.

Anyway, happy birthday to me.

Reflecting on life, I have lots of thoughts that I can't pen down right now.

I'm still torn between wanting to travel for the rest of my life and wanting to start building a family.

The first option is ultimately easier, since I doubt my emotional capacity to deal with the second one.

Change is hard, and we all know that. But change is the only way we can move forward.

Oh well.

Happy 26th.

Saturday, 11 November 2017

Leaping out of my comfort zone

Just a week prior to this, I have a hard time trying to wake up on weekday mornings.

It's not like I hate my work.. it's just that I can't find a drive to wake up. Work was static for me - not very enjoyable, except for some of the people I call friends. OPD has become a comfort zone for me, likely so since I've been there for 1 year 8 months. Otherwise, trying to beat time in getting medications ready, ensuring there's no medication error, and ultimately hearing complaints from patients when you're already trying your best are hardly a motivation for me to love what I'm doing.

It's why I go traveling every few months or so - there's nothing that keeps me wanting to stay.

I don't believe now that my traveling habit is going to change anytime soon, since work is no longer enjoyable for me. I don't go to work on weekends willingly anymore, haha. I used to love working so much, I hardly take any leaves or off time. I collected 272 off hours time that I didn't use during my PRP year, believe it or not.

Anyway.. getting to the point. I'm reporting for work in the clinical department starting Monday.


I'm more nervous.

Unlike so many others, I enjoyed my clinical attachment when I was a PRP. I don't love the clerking or the requirements, but I enjoyed learning so many things. I enjoyed being in the ward, seeing and getting to take the time to talk to patients. I love following ward rounds, learning how doctors work and come to a decision. Most of all, I think I love learning about life.

There's so many life lessons to be learnt in a hospital ward. Not surprising, but that's why I love it.

But I'm still nervous, for so many reasons.

1) Am I good enough to become a clinical pharmacist? After almost 2 years in OPD, my knowledge is becoming rusty and needs a good brush up. There's still so much that I don't know. I'm not that smart.

2) Can I become a good communicator and build a good rapport with the ward staffs? People expect the pharmacist to know everything in the ward, and unlike in OPD or IPD, you hardly have a colleague you can confirm something with. I'm going to be left all alone now.

3) Can I be a good preceptor to my PRPs now? OPD stuff is fairly basic, but my clinical knowledge is quite limited, and I am expected to guide them already. Omg..

The only thing that gives me strength is the fact that 1) I can learn, but I need to work hard and 2) for some reason, other people believe that I can do it.

Whyyy? I noticed this pattern since uni years. Smart people will come to me and ask questions, expecting me to know the answers (I don't, because I study at the very last minute in uni). Even in OPD, I have come to be the point of reference for stuffs.

I honestly don't know a lot. I'm not smart, but people expect me to be. And believe me, I want to deliver so bad, because I value being smart and knowledgeable so much.

I worry that I can't deliver in clinical. In wards, or in teaching my PRPs.

I worry so damn much, that last night the minute I plopped down my bags at home, I started looking for my old notes and books and started poring over them. I'm going to be in charge of TDM (among other things....... sigh), and all pharmacists get how exactly excruciatingly hard TDM is.

So.. I guess worrying is a good thing, it's making me study. But I hope it won't overwhelm me, and making me go blur half the time because I can't think or function very well when I have butterflies in my tummy.

I'm so nervous, I'm typing this entry in English even. I'm usually more cautious of my words when I'm using English.

On a positive note, I love this whole process. I get to learn and be seriously awesome in the future (I give myself 6 months to a year before I feel awesome). I'm thankful that people (and surprisingly, my KPF) believe that I can do it and thus injecting the same confidence in me.

I'm grateful that I can be such a social butterfly sometimes, that all the clinical pharmacists already know me and are close with me, so I don't need to build relationships with them from scratch.

Most of all, I'm glad that I'll be flying to Osaka, Japan in a week's time. It's the perfect timing to unwind and probably get a new perspective.

Alhamdulillah, so far everything works in my favour. There's a lot of things that I can work for in life, but good timing is something no one can predict. That, I have only God to be thankful for.

Wish me luck and send me prayers, guys. I'm gonna need it badly for the next few months.


Monday, 23 October 2017

The amazing BHA

So, last entry aku dah cerita tentang AHA, now let's move on to BHA.

Aku memang happy dengan effect yang aku dapat dari AHA - brighter skin, whiteheads cepat hilang, dan kalau ada PIH pun aku cuma perlu bersabar dan dia akan hilang jugak akhirnya.

Sebab itu laa kata kunci bila pakai acids ni - SABAR. Kalau gopoh gapah nak instant results, takut kulit jadi overexfoliated nanti.

Tapi kalau aku cakap kena bersabar, kenapa aku gigih nak tambah BHA, which is another type of acid, dalam routine aku?

Sebab BHA ni lain dengan AHA.

What is BHA?
- beta hydroxy acid, ada sejenis je iaitu salicylic acid/salicylate
- BHA ni oil-soluble, so dia boleh penetrate into deeper pores dan cleanse out pores
- BHA lebih mengeringkan kulit when compared to AHA

Dan aku mula pakai BHA sebab
1) walaupun aku takde blackhead (aku rasa laa lol), tapi sebaceous filaments memang ada especially kat area hidung & dagu
2) nak kurangkan pore appearance kat area hidung & pipi

Bila pores bersih, dia tak laa nampak obvious sangat, dan seterusnya kulit pun nampak halus mulus. Tapi nak hilangkan pores 100%? Impossible! Sebab kulit kita memerlukan pores untuk buang sebum & peluh. What we can do is minimize their appearance by keeping them clean.

Enlarged pores, annoying tau. Gambar hasil carian Google.

Beza sebaceous filaments dengan blackheads. Gambar hasil carian Google.

Sebaceous filaments (SF) ni normal, tapi orang selalu confuse dia dengan blackheads. Basically blackheads ni ialah sejenis jerawat, tapi sebaceous filaments ni bintik hitam yang normal. Kiranya kalau korang rasa blackhead kat hidung korang tu tak hilang-hilang walau pakai apa produk sekalipun, most likely it's a SF, not a blackhead.

Aku pakai CosRx BHA Blackhead Power Liquid, containing 4% betaine salicylate

Friday, 20 October 2017

After 2 months of AHA use

Okay, selingan kepada travel entries ialah skincare entries muahaha.

Bulan Ogos yang lepas, aku bagitahu yang aku nak start pakai AHA.

Bulan September, aku TERRRbeli BHA pulak.

So far, aku baru pakai AHA dalam 2 bulan, dan BHA dalam sebulan. The results?

Like seriously, omg my skin gets so awesome and it super lovessss the acids.

Okay so let me break this down into details. In this entry, I will focus on AHA je dulu.

So, what is AHA?
- alpha hydroxy acids, sejenis kumpulan acid yang digunakan dalam low concentration untuk tujuan exfoliation
- jenis-jenis AHA: glycolic acid (paling common), lactic acid, mandelic acid
- AHA ni water-soluble & bantu exfoliate lapisan kulit paling atas, vs BHA yang oil-soluble dan akan exfoliate ke dalam pores
- sesuai untuk kulit kering since AHA tak mengeringkan kulit as compared to BHA

Why exfoliation is important?
- untuk bersihkan pores daripada impurities - sebum, habuk, sisa makeup, dll
- bila pores bersih, baru essence, serum, dan sebagainya boleh absorb ke dalam kulit dengan lagi pantas & bertindak dengan lebih berkesan
- increase skin turnover - kulit kita usually akan complete shedding cycle dia dalam masa ~28 hari. So bila kita exfoliate dengan kerap, kulit akan complete shedding cycle lebih cepat, so lapisan kulit paling atas ialah yang baru, bukannya dead cells yang dah lama terkumpul atas kulit

Skin turnover cycle. Gambar hasil carian Google.

Aku mula pakai AHA sebab
1) nak hilangkan PIH - post-inflammatory hyperpigmentation
2) nak ratakan warna kulit/brighten (bercahaya?) skin
3) nak kurangkan whiteheads

Aku pakai CosRx AHA Whitehead Power Liquid, containing 7% glycolic acid

Wednesday, 18 October 2017

Hong Kong #4 - Dimsum @ Islamic Centre

Episod terakhir siri Hong Kong/Macau. Last day ni kitorang aim nak makan dim sum je kat area Wan Chai, HK Island.

Area Wan Chai & Causeway Bay ni sesuai untuk stay kalau korang berhajat untuk makan local halal food setiap hari kat Hong Kong ni, dan ada banyak tempat shopping jugak. Tapi hotel kat area sini agak pricey. Makanan kat HK ni pun perlukan banyak $$$ *nanges*. Aku banyak refer mengenai halal food kat website Have Halal, Will Travel

Last day, kitorang terus check out dan tinggalkan luggage untuk jalan-jalan dulu memandangkan flight waktu maghrib.

Ni view kat luar lif hostel kitorang. Buluh untuk construction.

Tak tahu kenapa aku obsessed sangat dengan buluh ni hahaha. Aku bukannya arkitek, engineer, or orang construction okayyy.

Camni je dia tutup weh

Okay excuse me for my weird obsession with buluh as construction material, moving on now.

Kitorang jalan kaki relaks je sampai ke Space Museum HK. Pastu jalan di pesisir laut untuk tengok skyline Hong Kong waktu siang pulak.